Regret

There are times that I look back

In these moments I often feel regret

Because I see all the mistakes I have made

The wrong turns I took

The wrong people I trusted

The bad decisions that I made

But as I reflect on these regrets

I realize I don’t have to feel regret

All of these things that I have wasted time regretting

Have been the things that I have made me who I am today

Without the pain of my past

I would not be

This strong person

This brave person

This person who in the face of fear

Knows I don’t have to be afraid because God is with me

In the midst of my greatest pain is when I came to know God

It was only in my darkest moment

When I was able to see his light

I did not see him

But I felt his hand

Gently, guiding me through

If I would not have been where I was

I would not know God today

I would not know God’s love

I would not know that he is with me

The pain of my past

Is a reminder

Of all God has done for me

What he has delivered me from

And that he is always beside me

As I look back on my past today

I do not feel regret

I can’t change those things that once haunted me

I don’t want to

I’m not that person I once was

God has used those things

To bring me where I am today

To change me into the person I am today

And to reveal himself to me

And that is all that really matters

Expectancy

                A few weeks ago the message in church was about blessings. The pastor talked about raising your level of expectancy and looking forward to God’s blessings. He said that we receive exactly what we expect from God.

            I began to reevaluate my expectations. Many times I have not expected God’s blessings. I often doubt God, and question his ability to improve my circumstances. Instead of expecting God’s blessings I expect bad things to happen. I have often spoken negative things over my life. I have things like “This is just how it is.” or “It will never get better.” I wonder how much I have been limiting God’s blessings in my life, by doubting God’s abilities and not expecting his blessings.

            I have decided to change my level of expectancy. I will not speak negatively about my future or my circumstances anymore. Every morning I will thank God for his blessings and all the good things that he will bring forth in my life. I will no longer expect the negative things, but I will expect God’s blessings. I will focus on God’s promises and not my fears. In a year a plan on writing an entry about how this has changed my circumstances.

            Do you struggle with expecting negative things to happen? Have told yourself “This is just how it is.” or “it will never get better?” Do you expect God’s blessings? Do you doubt God’s ability to improve your circumstances? I want to challenge you to raise your level of expectancy. Expect God’s blessings. Read scriptures on God’s promises, so that you can know all the good things God has promised you. As mothers we need to raise our level of expectations, because our children will model us. If we expect blessings, so will our children. If we expect negative things to happen, we will instill fear in our children’s’ lives, and they will expect negative things to happen as well.

            If you have taken my challenge to change your level of expectancy, Comment on how this has improved your life.